go with the flow

Someone once said to me, "We only believe what we want to believe." Something I do in life. This, by the way, is a doodle. Something I do in class.

eh?

Its almost 3 in the morning, and I'm eating cake and thinking what I've done in life so far. I like someone. Or maybe I don't. I hate so many people. Or do I? Life has been stressful over the past week, and maybe I'm overreacting to physical and mental stress. But there are questions that arise. Some need to be addressed. Some should rather be left undisturbed. Some people think I'm immature. Some think I'm good advice. I choose to use maturity selectively. Learnt that from my good friend Nikhil. Maybe someday I will grow up. And regret not being a kid anymore. But wait, don't I do that even now? Maybe I'm just a bit grown up. Damn I'll be 23 in a month. I wish I was 13. That's it. That's all I want to say. For now. As I finish this off, Mr. Bonjovi says, "Everybody needs somebody to love. Everybody needs somebody to hate." I wonder.

...pride

your eyes
deny
a life that dulls your pride.
your eyes
they hide.
through me you will heal in time.

Notes: Lyrics courtesy - Soil (Pride).

Pages from The Diary: Untitled (Children of the Beast?)

Running in the cover of the moonlight shining
Keep your doors locked, start to hide
Riding like knights on horses bounding
Across the fields, eyes open wide

Lock yourselves in, don’t answer our call
We’ll seek you out, we’ll find you all

We are the children of the beast…

Dibesh Saha
(2001/2002)

Note: Yes! The Diary is back. Hehe...way back from 2001-2002...my earliest...ahem..."songwriting" days. All hack-n-slash. Reminds me of a certain Metallica song.

Suck My Life Away...

Lust is how you enticed me and now I’m broken
Trust is what I can’t trust anymore
A life so unordinary I can’t believe
What your faithless love has done to me
I thought I’d seen my perfect world inside you
Blind is what I am now because of you
Life is so unfair I can’t believe
How I find myself down on my knees…

But now I breathe,
I’m breathing life back into me…

Shadows of our memories
They won’t just stay away
I won’t love you tomorrow
You suck my life away
I can’t trust you today, darling
And our love won’t find a way
There’s no hope in tomorrow
‘Cause you suck my life away…

Dibesh Saha
(2003/2004)

Note: Something I wrote way back in 2003/2004 for (my band in India) Swastika. Apparently I was writing songs about break-ups before I had actually gone through one. I guess I was a suicide-child(is that even a word?)! Hehehehe...

Gas Panic!

Good fuckin tune this. Good fuckin band this. Oasis.