I am...

I get my cup of sorrow, from the money that you spend,
In the name of religion, this freedom is a stain,
Killed my brother and my sister, left me to die alone
Swear on ashes of my father, this heart is cold as stone…

I am the fear in your eyes before you die.
I am the punishment that you will not survive.
I am the beggar on the street that you despise.
I am the man who digs your grave before your time.
I am the crimson blood that pours out of your eyes.
I am eternal truth that will unmask your lies.
I am the Angel of Death who’s come to reap.
I am the child who puts you to eternal sleep.

The nail bomb that you planted, in the back of the school today,
So many futures wasted, decaying with the flesh…
Generation after ge-ne-ration was, is, and will be
Overseers, observers – death of an ever-dying breed…

I am the smile that you will see before you scream.
I am the nightmare that replaces all your dreams.
I am destruction such that you have never seen.
I am the darkest of the places you’ve been in.
I am such future that will rip your past away.
I am the switchblade that will tear your skin away.
I am the death of all the angels you did know.
I am the fear that will feed on you and grow.

I am…
I am what I am…
I am what I made me…
I am what I made me out to be…

Speaking of no tomorrows, I had a dream today
There were no roads that led me out of my yesterdays…
Society just told me what, where, and how to be
When the fires do stop burning, why am I left with (just) me?

I am the fear that I feel before I die
I am the punishment that flows out of my eyes
I am eternal angst that feeds the dancing flames
I am scorn, I am hate, I am the blame
I am creator of the mind that sucks me dry
I am preserver of the pain I choose to hide
I am destroyer of the soul blessed by thee
Oh God forgive me…I am not what you meant to be…

- (2006)

P.S. The beast awakens.